i just had to try out this 'new' beta blogger

The past cannot catch up! I shall not allow it!

After a very strange short conversation I had with me I was shocked to find out that he had remembered things that I hadn’t even remembered from years ago. He actually seemed to indicate a higher level of interest than I had recalled before. I just ran away from that. Hopefully I won’t have to deal with it again for a while but I don’t need him confusing me anymore. I am a little disappointed in myself that I had to run away. It is my downfall if I can’t be more apathetic towards him and just get whatever he is going to say over with.

I was talking to somebody online about by concern about Dami’s sudden appearance and his unusual set of statements. So this person thought that somehow it would be educational to figure out what I got from Dami that prevented me from being as apathetic as I would like. I didn’t exactly agree with this approach but I let him carry me through as he wanted- not saying much. He determined that it was because I received truthful compliments and felt as though I was important.

To defeat this- oh so long ago when he was busy wrecking my life I did things that he said that I knew full well I wasn’t going to receive compliments for from anyone ever. There is no honor in singing “I’m a little Teapot” for instance. For the second one, I was important but in a degenerative way. Although knowing what compliments and importance speaks of you might be useful in a regular relationship it doesn’t make sense that it would have a connection regarding Dami since he put me through so much stuff and things he knew I didn’t want to do.

I have heard of this compliment rumor before though- although more generalized as opposed to being about me only- yet targeted to me. “Blahblah doesn’t compliment you?! Sounds like a jerk blahblahblah”… You know what is worse than not getting complimented…being lied to. So there doesn’t look like there should be any complaints from anyone. I can understand what is going through my fellow friends’ minds although I can’t seem to defend against it sufficiently – to their agreement at least.

There isn’t much point to this blog aside to say that some of my friends might treat me possibly unfairly well…how dare they!! <3

And also to announce my unfortunate lack of apathy. It would be so useful. I wish I had it in a box so that when I didn’t feel like dealing with something I could put it on my head and deal with it anyway! =D

Delightful!