Dan is the real name and Dami is what I call him...so why am I posting about this person?
It just bugs me some times. Not all the time. Sometimes. And I was thinking about it...
There is no way I can properly explain Dami [or even want to!] and I don't tell much details about this person to anyone I don't trust completely [150%]. So I'll just sum up what I am willing to say.
Essentially Dami [i dislike him btw] kinda wrecked my life a while ago. I never actually met him, we chatted on AIM and on webcam. Chances are, he didn't know that he was causing me to go crazy. I am not sure what he did know. He pretty much tricked me and gave himself power over me.
Now, I am not trying to say I was hypnotized into doing anything. I blame myself a lot. I was convinced; he had a part of that, a major one. I got into a position where if I didn't do what he told me to do or kept him happy, I faced severe reprecussion.
That period has been over for a while. It ended. I claimed to myself that me breaking off is me "winning", I am not sure if there were was a "winning"....anyway...
What has been bothering me is this one time in the Airport at Arizona [part of transfering to another plane to go to CA]...AZ is where he lives and I was going to meet him there. We were both at the airport and we never saw eachother through a variety of mess-ups. That day I was hoping this would be it, I could finally end it if I saw him. It wouldn't require anything. Just sight.
I can't explain why I felt that way but it was a very strong feeling (not emotion) and even now I feel like I can't finish it until I see him face-to-face.I want to forget about it forever. But it is there, bothering me...
I guess the only thing to do is to go to AZ huh?
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